sheesh.....

Yesterday, I had a nice fight with my parents. It was not a fight actually, just another indication of discontentment with my way of life. This time, because i did not retort, the discontent did not rise to annoyance. My parents are particularly troubled by my participation in this organisation called SGI. They do not like my going to the meetings regularly. They know my mission in life is to spread peace and happiness and thus they are trying to make the very first step towards my mission a huge task in itself. Sensei says peace starts from home. If we have a harmonious family, we will be able to better spread peace in our society. But, well, for peace to prevail at home there are things, which are much more tedious than spreading the message of shanti in this world. I can write essays on methods for peace making and can eloquently deliver the message of love and compassion to an audience of 107. But when it comes to making my parents happy and not getting into petty arguments... OMG!!! Its sooooo difficult.
Yesterday..... I told my mom that i would have to go for a presentation meeting the next day, which would last for an hour or so. Immediately her tempers rose and she said , "Dekh rahe ho Kuldeep.... iska room toh saaf hai nahin, exercise karti nahin aur roz meetings ke liye jaane lag gayi hai". Now. Bacause I don’t sweat and become a 36-24-36 figured chic and because I don’t follow my mom in being Miss Perfectly Clean Aquarian, I am not allowed to things which really matter to me.
I wish parents could understand......

But well. I acnt change others, but I canchange myself. I guess i just have to do what i don't like. Coz i need to get what I like.

If there is any parent who is reading this post....... reflect. When you quieten your child's "blabbering", when you ignore her demands to join the salsa class (because you fear she might have sex with her partner after the class0, when you nudge her thinking she would understand.....when you blame her without having the patience to find out WHAT EXACTLY happened and WHY she did it.......

you are killing the daughter within her. If she is like me...... she will probably keep changing herself thinking all thats happening to her is her own responsibility ..then its good....... otherwise..... dont blame her friends when she stays out late at nights or does not want to come home after college. The reason why young adults rebel is because parents dont see them as adults!